What a bitch! Totally a scragg!

...i never know that she is that sort of bitch. i should not have trusted her. My god! this is what you get when u try to help someone who is ignorant. i hope God can show her something but it is too late to reconcile the friendship that we have built.

...wondering how and why?

...a very brave little puppy...

...he is very strong...he has survived for a week...he is paralyze. he can't move and he can't breast feed from his mom. my brother and sister made milk for him everyday so that it can live. i feel pity for this puppy. even the mom does not care about him. my brother bought a baby bottle to feed him milk with.

it is very surprising that he still lives. i hope that one day he can walk...and be  normal like other dogs. that's what i'm wishin for one day. i hope he stay for a long time...i'd b sad if he give up now. :(

beautiful nitemare...

i always thought of my life as a beautiful nitemare...love ones come n go but never one sticks. i was happy when i am with the man that i really love and cherished. None of that will be forever...everything is temporary. when they break the news about they love someone else, it crashes me into pieces...but whatever it is, i have to give the man that i once thought was mine a smile and say "it's okay, i am fine and it is normal. i won't force u. u take care".

i dun really know wat is it with me that attracts men that much...i think i should just keep quiet n smile. whenever i met a man that i want to be with...i never want to leave him. if it's a dream...i just hope that i stay in this dream not knowing it's goin to be bad in the end....life is beautiful nitemare...u want to control it but u never have the power to do it. every beautiful things that u dreamt of will dissapear once u open ur eyes...

Pea-COCK

I went to the MTV World Stage concert…it was indeed FUN! I really love to see VJ Utt. He is very very handsome! The performances of the artist are fantabulous! It is only because of the rains that made trhe fans go haywire…I’ve been standing in the rain for 7 hours. Alas, the performances were great and that made our day.

Katy Perry understands the dress code and she wore a tight pink jumpsuit with a tutu. She is GREAT! She did sing a new single from her new album entitled ‘Peacock’…it was her last song on that day…she says…

Katy : Are you guys up for my new single?
Audience: YEAH!!!
Katy: I don’t know if you guys like it or not…because I never sing this single before. It’s not that special. Anyway, it’s only about a bird. So, here it is ‘Peacock’
…(as she sings till the chorus)

Chorus…I sang along…
LET ME SEE YOUR PEACOCK…COCK…COCK…COCK
YOU PEACOCK…COCK…COC….
Then I automatically stop…is this your definition of a bird (I asked myself)? Then I looked at everyone as they sing along, I guess they did not notice about the lyrics. I am ashamed. But it is a very nice song…I enjoyed it. Thank god, no one shows their little cock!

I am attached to a thing called INSOMNIA

I hate it! My mind keep on thinking about my assignments…thank you mystery guy for not revealing who u are, I don’t think about any guy anymore. Just my assignments…sometimes, when I am done with one assignment, my heart is restless and think about the next assignment. God…help me! I avoid coffee as much as I can, as I will only take it in the morning and not in the afternoon or evening as it will not help me much in getting some sleep.

I am back to my cross-stitching again because most of my time I don’t know what to do…but I get to watch tv a lot and hangout with my friends…that will put my heart to ease. Blogging…people usually tease others in their blogs or throw a tantrum here but for me…I’m telling people that I have a lame life but I am still breathing until today as I challenge some lame obstacles whether I like it or not…some instantly commit suicide if they feel they are worthless. I’m on the other hand feels worthless but I don’t think committing suicide is for me…eewww…

I’d like to have shopping spree as a hobby (if I were to be a billionaire) but never really knows where money comes from. For sure, it will never grow on trees. When I was a kid, I always thought that money grows from trees. I love money…well, who doesn’t? I shopped a lot this semester…because I didn’t get the chance to shop last semester. This is probably revenge… J… my parents have a shortage on money nowadays because they spent a lot on their hobbies such as my dad…his hobbies are hunting and fishing…the gears and equipments for both hobbies are not cheap….my mom…tuck herself into a chair and hope luck is on her side… and yell JACKPOT!!!!...if she’s lucky. Now I know where I got my addiction from…both sides. I am a shopaholic…

I went to Stadium Melawati…(did I spell it correctly?) anyway…I went there hoping that I get to buy my cosmetic but sadly the products sold was a disappointment. I sacrificed some panties and 1 bra…it costs like RM21++…because I bought two bottles of fragrance cost like RM80…phew, tough choice…I waited for my friend buying her lingerie…I wonder if she can fit in it…it’s cheap anyway…she can owez buy more. Previously it was grandma’s panties and now it’s Jessica Alba’s panties…all I can say is MUFFIN!

GEELICIOUS...signing off!

...busy life...

...my new chapter has begun. it started at about three weeks ago, i guess. my life is not as miserable as what my friends thought it would be...it's kind of, slow and enjoyable. Mr. A and i still contacting each other just like friends...Az still text me within 2 weeks time. that's the guys stories...

every day i get back home and i will take my fresh shower...then straight to bed. i've been living my life like a busy person...although i don't have anything to do, i will find something to keep me occupy. i can't make myself free because my mind would think of some negative thoughts and i wouldn't like it. i wonder how would it feel if i tell my mum that i really want to be a single parent...it must be a jaw dropping event for my mum. my dad? heart-attack!

i have a class on Women in Literature...it is so far my favourite subject as i could put myself in all the characters' shoe...it is somehow and sometimes reflects me in all of my relationships that i had with my exes...it's kind of fun to put my thoughts into it and being agreed on...hehe.

my friends on the other hand have lots going on with them...some with an untrusted MEN, some have doubts within themselves...

my past experience help me a lot although it really puts me into a lot of trouble but it always put my feet back on the ground. so far, im enjoying what i have and had...i love the new chapter that im in right now...geelicious!