...i dun really care

life's hard nowadays...when u really want something, it goes away all of a sudden...when u oready forgotten about the pain n move on...it comes back to u...u really tried very hard to keep it safe and protect it from all the dangers or obstacles as u mite say it...it slips rite in front of ur very eyes...things just dun last forever in my life. so, im goin to stay happy means not gettin hurt anymore...gudbye g, t, c etc...life's tough but if a guy cant appreciate wat u gave them, Lose them...i dun tink i deserve to be treated like this. soon, im goin to change my number again...for the 100th times...i couldnt bear the burden anymore...i know it hurts so bad and i just opened my eyes dat ol of them are useless to me...thans for everythin...as i dun really care wat u tink bout me...

he is lying...

i think he is lying to me...he told me about he got another pregnant...it's all just a lie...y cant he jez tell it straight to my face dat he doesnt want to be wit me...the end of story. sometimes, i wonder y he did dis to me...did i do something dat is so very wrong and he decided dat bein wit me is a mistake? dat is the last for me to eat back his words....i shud not trust him. he's just an ordinary guy...n nutin more...i tot he was different but he's not...he's just the usual guy who likes to play with ladies' feelin. i owez tot dat a guy like him to be loyal is just too good to be true...n i'm rite...he is just a BIG BASTARD who likes to lie. Sue's rite...i shud hate him...

i still cant get over him...

the flashbacks of my memory with him still haunts me...my god, i really want to get over him. the words that he owez says to me...lasnite, i still remember the words that he says about wanted to have a future wit me...i duno whether he is just kidding bout dat...but i did take it seriously. the first day dat we met after a long break...he told me dat he wanted me back...i asked him..."are u ever goin to leave me again?"...i tink i knew the answer but i just give it a try...he promised dat he'll never leave me....but it's just a promise...i sang a song to him by Kelly Clarkson...'already gone'...i never tot he listens to the lyrics....i guess its true because "...we were owez meant to say goodbye..."...it's just not our fate...i have to deal wit it sooner or later...i know it's goin to take months...but i have to...i dun tink he's worth it. Figthing!!! JiaYou!

....ex again...?

well...here's my new year....i'm tryin to lead a very simple n i tink normal life...but then...my ex wanted to get back wit me...i tot dat we wil be together for a very long period of time...then, sumtin came up and we decided to go on wit our lives separately...i owez tot dat havin ur ex back wit u is sum kind of stupid thing to do...very stupid. new year has been ruined by my stupid decision. i hope he's doin great and i dun wan to see him agen...and if i ever bump into him agen, i'll pretend to hav amnesia. so much for wanting me back and dumping me agen. so...freeugenia...does dat mean i'm free? i'm never free... :(