...yesterday was a very clear day and fine weather, i must say. I went out wit Mr. A, we talked about things, his future...my future...his past and my past...and 1 fact that made me opened my eyes...my eyeballs were about to popped out...but its OK. it's my fault to be far from him...he dun trust me and for sure neither do i...n whenever he utters the word 'love'...i replied every time but the feelings not there...its true, it's hard to accept ur other half when u dun trust him/her.
he told me about his feelings last nite. it made me feel weird n quirky. i must say i enjoyed the time spent together. we held each others hands while walking...i never had that moment before...all of my ex told me dat its an embarrassment to hold hands in public...i told him dat i tink i mite fall for him, but then again i tink it's too soon to say so...i never expected him to express his feelings to me...a very simple girl whom i dun really know myself dat well, unless people tell me so. i dun ave the looks, i dun ave a great skin and im nobody...
im looking for a long-term r/ship and not just a scandal...but everything is too good to be true. every time im looking for the ugly ones to be wit, there's owez the one who has the good looks and women all over them...who wanted to be wit me...i just dun understand sometimes. i wanted some thing simple and nothing special...and every time i get a huge package. it doesn't help me dat much...people told me dat im too young to think about this, but im not getting any younger...i tink my nitemare is coming true...go ahead n shoot me...