i still cant get over him...

the flashbacks of my memory with him still haunts me...my god, i really want to get over him. the words that he owez says to me...lasnite, i still remember the words that he says about wanted to have a future wit me...i duno whether he is just kidding bout dat...but i did take it seriously. the first day dat we met after a long break...he told me dat he wanted me back...i asked him..."are u ever goin to leave me again?"...i tink i knew the answer but i just give it a try...he promised dat he'll never leave me....but it's just a promise...i sang a song to him by Kelly Clarkson...'already gone'...i never tot he listens to the lyrics....i guess its true because "...we were owez meant to say goodbye..."...it's just not our fate...i have to deal wit it sooner or later...i know it's goin to take months...but i have to...i dun tink he's worth it. Figthing!!! JiaYou!

....ex again...?

well...here's my new year....i'm tryin to lead a very simple n i tink normal life...but then...my ex wanted to get back wit me...i tot dat we wil be together for a very long period of time...then, sumtin came up and we decided to go on wit our lives separately...i owez tot dat havin ur ex back wit u is sum kind of stupid thing to do...very stupid. new year has been ruined by my stupid decision. i hope he's doin great and i dun wan to see him agen...and if i ever bump into him agen, i'll pretend to hav amnesia. so much for wanting me back and dumping me agen. so...freeugenia...does dat mean i'm free? i'm never free... :(

wat a lame life...?

news of death within a month...my aunt being murdered and my grandpa's death is totally tragic as we dun even know wat's his time of death...and within 6 months i dumped 3 guys (it lasted only for 2 weeks)....or vice versa...God knows. i really dun know wat kind of life im leadin here...its just weird dat my life has turned upside down suddenly...i dun mind if its for the better...but its gettin worser everyday...if i am at fault, why does all of my exes want to come back to me...y do they come at once? i never been wit any of my exes because when we broke up, i detox everything and totally forgotten every details dat i had about them. it is weird to accept ur ex back, it is weird to hav someone dat u once love n they turn their back on u when u need them the most...y now i shud turn back to u, if u havent change a bit? maybe, if u show some kindness in u...i wouldnt hesitate to take u back... :)