does it matter?

sometimes i wonder wats life without my 'prince charming'? how would he look like? is he a nice person...can he be my 'friend' too at the same time? it seems like he will never come...mr.g obviously ran away oready...and mr. A is still in an open relationship. so, im still searching for the one...i wonder would he be thinking about me too rite now? i mean my 'prince charming'...does it matter if i dun hav anyone in the end? does it matter if i wan to be a single mother? does it matter raising ur child solo? everything does matter nowadays...i should stop thinking about men and focus more on myself...fighting!

2 is better than 1?

...when u read the headline of this post, u must've thought about one of the song from boys like girls...i dun really understand the song...is it about two lovers being one? or is it about two boyfrens are better than 1? well, i prefer to have two than one...in searching for the ONE, u must open up and tell them the truth...now, i'm not really sure about my status...in a relationship or not? mr. g wanted me back and we talked about US... i told him about a man who entered my life recently that is mr. A...who was once married and now has separated wit his wife...mr. A is a very nice man, he made me feel happy when i lose mr. g the other day....mr. g and mr. A are very different person. there is a vast differences between these two men...mr. g says im not pretty and im not attractive at all whereas mr. A says that im very beautiful and sexy...some guys just say this to get into the girl's pants but its different with mr. A...when he talks or say stuff to me...he would just look into my eyes and i can feel that he really meant it...but i just get the feeling that he does the same to other women...but im not really sure...mr. g is struggling wit the pregnant lady...STILL. eversince mr. A entered my life...i feel like im worth millions...i dun need mr. g to make me feel secure...i just need my self-confidence and trust my self in doing things...mr. A taught me how to appreciate life. the other day, i invited him to a friend of mine open house...whenever people ask about US...he just said "yeah, we're lovers..." i was shocked but i felt good...and at the same time happy. i must admit that i cried a lot for mr. g that month but eversince i met mr. A...he makes me laugh and smile a lot...i really like him. cant believe im saying dis...but its true. if only mr. g can see that i still have feelings for him...but i dun tink he can...he wanted the time to heal everything...but i dun see any effort being put in...does he really mean it when he wants me back? im still hurt on wat he did to me...but i just say that im fine...i dun wan to complain...i'll just see how it goes. :) mr. A...arigato-gozaimasu!