...endless miserable happiness...

...i thought that things could be better everyday. wish is just a wish, just to build a hope that will never happen. i am happy to have a boyfriend who maybe thinks that i  changed which i am just occupied with things around me. he changes too as he thinks about lots of stuff inside his head everyday about me. i knew that this day would come.

the thing about love is...it fades time to time. if there is no chemistry, leave it. if you thought there is something, it does not hurt to try but just do not let urself being fooled by it. i don't know my state right now, i am not happy and i am always miserable. going to the club is one of my ways to release the tension and misery...but he thought that i am looking for men. this is part of the reasons that i dont understand but it happens to everyone who is still a rookie. i am immune as i don't know the definition of love. when u love someone they corrupt ur freedom and ur mind. i hope no one is living a life just like mine. it sucks bad time.