...trust...

...yesterday was a friend of mine bday. it was not that fun when things turn to be ugly. i love him...but i did not reach out to him. he told me that he loves me FOR REAL. im not sure dat whether b4 this does he loves me for real...he got drunk...i escorted him to his room and he talked to me as he is sane. he expressed his feelings again...and yup...talks bout marriage. i wonder wat will he do if i say i will...or I DO? i din respond, i just said stop babbling and ur talking nonsense as ur drunk. then he opened his eyes and said "im drunk and i still can remember everything i said." it was a downhill for me...i just happen to know that his new gf was there. i felt embarrassed...i do. i asks myself wat does she has that i dont have...it is sad, but its partly my fault as i din spent more time wit him. and went to kl after three days meeting him. n he kept on blaming himself...

i really like him and love him. its just that trust matters to both of us. maybe i just din give him a chance to prove himself. i will try it, by all means, accept him so that i can trust him. we'll see how it goes. fighting! Jia You!