WANTED: friends...

...last night, i talked to Mr. G., he has a lot of problems...he told me that his phone went to the lake for a shower. the pregnant lady threw it...he lost all his contacts. he was very surprised that i called him. usually, when i call him, he will say "Hello, aunty...Eugenia...Mak Cik"...but last night...it was "HELLO?"...then i said to him, "o my God, u deleted my number?"...then he told me about his phone...it's actually his second phone down into the drain...i felt sorry for him. it was all because of the text between me and him that cause him trouble. it's true, im not over him yet...he asked me to curse him, then i told him "what for? is it going to help u and me? if i curse you, it is not going to help me and you...it's enough of what you are facing now." then he keeps on saying sorry as he lets me wait for him...i did not wait for him. i just wanted to make sure that he's okay so that i can move on. i really do love him...how can i move on when he needs support and a shoulder to cry on. i've been lying to myself about my feelings and Mr. A.

...between me and Mr. A., we have feelings that we kept only to ourselves. i dont really like dat...it's like a secret relationship. whenever people asked me about him, i would just say "we're friends...close friends, nothing more"...i am happy whenever he's with me, but something tells me that he's been acting differently lately...he has this cold shoulder when im with him. whenever i call him and he missed it, he usually returns my call...but now, it's not like dat...he just text me...m goin to sleep.luv u.muah....he keeps on denying it when i say dat he acts differently. i feel the heartache...it's my fault to let him down when we had the talk and my drunk ass...makes it difficult more...sometimes, i just wanted to be more normal...cry whenever i want to cry...but i cant! i feel hurt but couldnt let it out...i really hate the things that im facing now...it's not what i wish for and i feel like running away...starting a new chapter...but seriously, im really tired of it...

we all know about our friends' characters...they are there when u need them the most. that is true friends. they will not let you down. i need a shoulder to cry on...whenever i detox myself...my friends are there to keep me occupied...seriously, they are the ones who made me stand tall and make myself better...friends are hard to comeby, so appreciate them... :) love my friends!